I fear my interest in you is not as much in you, personally, as i currently feel it is or if it is gaining momentum mainly due to the attention you give me on a daily basis.
do you ever have second-hand obsessions
like one of your friends is super obsessed with a thing so whenever you see something about it you’re like “YES THIS THING” but you’re not the one obsessed with it. they are. you know very little about this thing and yet it still excites you because it excites your friend